i never thought i'd say this, but i'm so sick of summer.

it's too hot. it's way, way too humid. i know i can't really complain - those in the midwest are suffering from far greater heat than we are here in the northeast. but still, it's too hot for me. i can't deal with heat, and i can't even deal if it's a nice temperature but the humidity is high. i get exhausted, and headaches come fast. i burn to a crisp if i get stuck in traffic. and my car has no air conditioning. by the time i get to work on a hot day, my cheeks are bright red, i'm sweating, and any kind of cooperation i was experiencing from my hair is long gone. the quick transition from the sweltering heat of my stuffy car to the refreshing coolness of the air conditioned hospital makes me freezing, and i spend the rest of the afternoon wearing a sweatshirt. by the time i leave, i forget how humid it was earlier. i walk outside, still wearing the sweatshirt over my scrubs. and instantly start to sweat.

i feel like i haven't really enjoyed the outdoors in an active since in so long. i have gone for walks, and hikes, and sat outside, but the entire time, i wish i was somewhere nice and cool. i am not enjoying myself at all. the only time it's bearable is when i'm at the coast. when the ocean is bringing the sweet relief of a cool breeze, it's comfortable. it's just too bad that it takes an hour's drive in a poorly ventilated, 100 degree car to get to that relief. and so, i stay inside. i have always been the kind of person that sleeps in, but this summer, i have started getting up earlier, so i can try and enjoy a little bit of time without the heat of midday. everything is dying, or at least not growing. people's grass is either a nice shade of straw yellow, or stuck at the height of the previous cut. there are only the hardiest of flowers blooming, mostly sunflowers and black eyed susans.

annoyingly, the heat of the summer has not made the insects of the forest any less vicious. i went for a hike today through some forest and marsh. flies were buzzing around, pestering me by hovering around my ears. mosquitos, out in broad daylight, were feeding on my shoulders through my shirt. bees were following my every move, hungry from the lack of flowers. i couldn't enjoy myself at all.

i'm bored to death. i can't wait for school to start. i can't wait for the colors of fall. the crisp, refreshing air, especially first thing in the morning. i can't wait for the business of homework, studying for tests and soaking up new knowledge. i can't wait to be comfortable wearing a pair of pants, or a long sleeve shirt. fall brings so many wonderful things - vibrant foliage, apple picking, pumpkin patches, the art festival... i feel like i could go on forever. sorry, summer. i've had just about enough of you.